here's my position on door-holding: i don't like it. and "chivalry" in general: i hate it.

i think treating someone differently because of their gender is sexism. whether they're male or female, and even if the treatment is something "good," like holding doors, carrying books, or pulling back a chair at the table. when people do these things for me, i usually feel like i'm being put on some kind of pedestal that i'm not sure i want. or i feel like i'm being treated like a child--a silly girl who is incapable of doing things on her own. i feel like holding a door open for me just because i'm a woman is no different than refusing to pass me the ball in gym class for the same reason. if the person holding the door for me--the person who went ridiculously out of their way to ensure that i wouldn't have to so much as touch the door handle--would honestly do the same thing if it had been a burly man coming through the door, then i don't have an issue with it. but most of the time, that isn't the case.

the format is amazing, but i think i may be starting to love fun. just as much, if not more.

this song, which has a pretty clear meaning, is so upbeat and fun. "what's a boy to do when all the pretty girls can't measure to you?" love it.

"walking the dog" is amazing, too.

new she & him album: march 23rd.

yessssss.

things i love, despite all reason:

-lady gaga

-1000 ways to die (puntastic show on spike tv)

i feel like that may be it. i tend to be pretty reasonable.

i need a break.

i love this city. i love this school. i'm never happier than when i'm working on my film assignments. but today has been so long and tiring and i just want to go sleep for days.

i won't, though. over break, i'll probably be even busier. but it'll be a different kind of busy--more carefree and more fun. here's my list of things i will do:

-go to the city (& by that i mean nyc) twice within the span of 3 days. once with my suitemates (hopefully all of them!) and once with my friends.

-have a potluck dinner (at least one) with my friends, like we did over t-giving.

-get late night, half-priced appetizers

-go dancing

-drive around in my car

-walk on the beach at night (even though i will freeze)

-sing (i don't like to sing in my real singing voice at school. or very much at all, unless we're playing rockband or i'm in a weird mood. even then, it's not really my real singing voice.)

-cuddle

-seeing my kittens & cat

-improv show that i went to every week during the summer

-see people i hardly saw over the summer

-see my one friend before he leaves for india

-maybe see the xmas lights spectacular. maybe. if i'm feeling tacky enough.

-drive around with my bf to see xmas lights

-go to a concert?

-i need some new clothes

-see an education

-see some other movies

-bubble baths.

-sleepovers = )

i like how i get less coherent as i go.

*fun fact: i kept typing "busy" as "busty" because i'm epically spastic.

i don't wanna start any wars, but i think this is so sexist:

http://bringingladyback.blogspot.com/

i have so many problems with it.

listening to the cure (and covers of "just like heaven") makes me empathize with every guy who has ever had unrequited feelings for me.

...& it kind of makes me want to hug them all.

...all, like, two of them.

i get really bad tension headaches when i don't eat chocolate.

or maybe it's drink water.

i always forget.

i need to stop being so obsessed with clothes, i really do. such a minor part of my life. food is the most important.

however, i made this ensemble today on h&m's website:

& i want it.

also, i want "fire songs" by the watson twins. i listened to it online today and i loved every beautiful second of it.

i can't wait to go home so i can drive and listen to music and sing.